There comes a time in life when you should know what you want, what you don't want, who you want, who you don't want, what you can handle, what you cannot handle,
do you like your kids or dislike your kids, do you prefer fish or chicken, are you a saint or a sinner. You get my point right? Anyway, I decided that at my age
47 and Fine, not only should I be at that "Point", but I'm super late getting there. I'm tired. No, I'm exhausted. But I have to wonder if I would be this exasperated if I wouldn't have run through my life like I was on a hamster wheel. But when you know better you should do better right? I've wasted a lot of time, sweat, effort and tears because I didn't know what I wanted, what I deserved, what I could have and what I couldn't have. Not knowing who I wanted to join my life to, and then not being
willing able to stick by my choices,
no matter the threat to my sanity, have led me down a long, painful winding road, when it could have just been a short path. In short, choices have consequences. Maybe if I would have asked myself those serious questions years ago, and PRAYED and WAITED on GOD to direct my path, then I wouldn't feel so drained. But as long as there's breath in my body, it's still too soon to quit! I could lay down, fold my arms across my chest and give up the ghost today if I didn't believe that I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! So I will cast my burdens, exhaustion, weakness and my fed-up-idness on Jesus, because he said I could. *Sits back sips coffee crosses legs waiting on the Lord*
TK Jordan - Author/Playwright
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