How Can I Get Back Up Again If Their Foot Is On My Neck?

Yes I have scars from the sins of my past, but there is one thing I want to say,
Am I like the lepers to be placed outside, outside the Churches gates?

Yes I have sinned, yes I have weaknesses, and perfection I'm yet to know,
But God you said though my sins be as scarlet, you'll make me white as snow.

Though I try and try I must admit I fall short and some marks I do not meet,
They tell me I'm hopeless, they've invested too much time, I seem impossible to reach.
But God didn't you say to the shepherd to leave the 99 and go after the one lost sheep?

I may be only on level four when I should be on level 10,
But God didn't you say the race is not given to the swift, but to those who endure to the end?

God if I had been the drug addict, the prostitute or the woman at the well of this day,
Would you receive me with compassion and love, or would you cast me away?

Or what if I was brought before you to be stoned for the sins I committed today?
Would you extend your love and forgiveness to me, or would you cast me away?

When I lay my head down to sleep at night, these are the things I hear,
Why don't you just leave? You don't fit in, you are not welcome here.
There's no more we can do for you, you've made too many mistakes,
Why don't you do us all  a favor and please just go away.

So tell me God, what does that mean, what am I to believe?
Didn't you say in your Word that for every member there is a need?

In Ezekiel you spoke to your shepherds and this is what you had to say,
The weak you have not strengthened nor brought back what was driven away.

Come in, join us, you're welcome here, don't be so absurd,
But surely we all know that our actions speak louder than words.

You see what we say in words we often do not do,
Like when you said not to love in word or tongue, but in deed and in truth.

You said, "Who are you to judge?" That's what we should not do,
Yet here I sit judged before time, but who knows my ending Lord but you?

They see I've not been wise or noble, of course I have been weak,
The foolish things of this world seem to be the things that I seek.

With their eyes they have noticed all my flaws that they can see,
But somehow they are blinded to the fact that God can use me.

There's a lot I do not understand but one word I can trust,
When my mother and father forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.

We sway and sing the song "We Fall Down But We Get Up,"
That song gives us hope and strength, it reminds us of God's Love.

But God I have one question that is causing me much fret,
How can I get back up again if their foot is on my neck?

TK Jordan - Author/Playwright
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